What is inside My Blog..

Today is the 1st Syawal in Malaysia..other places already celebrate it yesterday..don’t know what happen to Malaysian moon..always not around when others appeared..kekekeke..shy I think she is..or maybe our Falak just look at the calendar to decide the date..I guess so..

I’m about to write this blog Diana_Saib..but planned to write it on the 1st of Syawal in Malaysia..not Indonesia..hehehehe…that why it’s been delayed for 1 day..

i’m not sure what is the feeling inside my heart..from last nite I feel like there is something that makes me feel sad..1st thing maybe this is the 1st time I celebrate Eidul Fitri in KL without my family..I mean without my lovely parent…uhuk uhuk uhuk..serious..I want to cry!!!waaaaaaa…..I’m about to cry, not cry yet!

After Maghrib prayer at Masjid Taman TAR, when Imam Sabery recite the Takbir..Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar..then I know what am I missing most..I’m missing my Ramadhan..I really really miss her..I cried slowly afraid that others might know that I’m crying..uhuk uhuk uhuk..what da!!why do i have to admit that I cried here??!!!it’s OK..at least I feel a bit comfortable when I write it down..

eh!do you know that during Ramadhan..i think on 29th of Ramadhan in Mekah..it’s been raining heavily there..and luckily my mother-in-law was there that time to tell us what was really happen there before the rain..Masjidil Haram was shaked like there was an earthquake..but the weird thing is..it just happen inside Masjidil Haram..outside people didn’t even know about it..all Jamaah were panic…most of them cried including my mama..the sound was just like millions of horses passing by..then it’s raining heavily after that..the same thing happen to my sister when she performed Haj few years ago..then I called her asking about this..

she told me that..this phenomena was mentioned in one very old book wrote by Tokku Pulau Manis..one of a very very religous person on the past..what do we called him…Wali Allah..he wrote this book based on Imam Ghazali’s school of taught..this happen because there were millions (i just put the figure which to show it just too many to be mentioned) of angels passing by that time..this is the sign of what we call Haji Akhbar if it is happen during Haj..and based on my sister..she told me that is supposed to be Haj Akhbar during that time but Saudi Goverment change the date due to some matters that I’m not so sure..same thing happen during this Ramdhan..after the quake then it start to rain heavily..but this time it was a sign of Lailatul Qadar..

I was sad and feel sorry for myself as I didn’t perform solat terawikh that day due to headache..if i could makes myself stronger that time..uhuk uhuk uhuk..till now I’m still thinking about it..what a huge waste for myself..what to do..it was my own mistake..

Life goes on..hopefully Allah will grant me a long life which I could meet with Ramadhan again next year..

As for now..i would like to wish all my families..my friends..all muslims in the world that..Happy Eidul Fitri..Maaf Zahir & Batin..